life lately

here are a couple pictures on my instagram lately:

hi, welcome to Uni life.

College starts on August. I made it to Tanjungpura University, International Management major. This university located on my hometown. Yes I'm staying here, after all.

This Uni life really keeping me busy. So many things to do if you're a freshman. I remember those orientation days, we stayed in campus for a whole day, three days straight.

Most of my girlfriends are moving outta town, continuing their college out of the town. It makes me really really really sad.

I got some nice new friends, though. My classmates in International Management major.

I'm trying to enjoy my freshmen year here as much as possible. I made a plan to try the Uni entrance test next year, actually.

Selipan

Aku kenal kamu.
Menurutku begitu.
Tidak pernah ada yang berarti dihari pertama itu.
Tembok masih kokoh. Kamu bukan apa apa.
Bukan serigala yang bisa meniup dinding bata hingga roboh.
Lalu hari,
jam,
menit,
detik,
bergulir terlalu cepat. Aku seperti tertinggal.

Entah berapa banyak yang kau selipkan.
atau mungkin tidak ada sama sekali.
atau mungkin mereka bukan selipan.
atau mungkin itulah mereka.
atau mungkin memang itulah adanya.
atau mungkin itu hanya aku.
atau mungkin terlalu banyak hingga kau letih mencoba.
hingga terlihat terlalu samar.
terlalu tumpul.
atau
aku yang seenaknya menyimpulkan?

Untukku
itu ada banyak.
aku hampir selalu menyelipkannya.
di sela sela kata.
di sela sela suara.
kadang ku gunakan sepersekian detik itu.
hanya untuk mencoba membaca.
tapi bahkan butuh beberapa jam
bagiku membaca buku, memahaminya.
aku tidak paham.
terlalu tumpul.
atau
kau memang berada di jalan yang lain?

Away

It's 00.00 when I started to write this.
I've been back home for 14 days and I don't know when will I be back to Jogja again. I took an university entrance test preparation for a month at Jogja, with my friends. I was really depressed and tired with finals stuff so I thought I need a refreshment, then I decided to go, away from home, for a month and a week.
I rented this small room, when I say small then it's literally a small one that only fits one, and stayed there while I was at Jogja.

My days in there was good, it was really good. Doing things I never done before like washing the dishes and do the laundry and going everywhere by foot (but if it's too far I prefer stop a taxi). I love the the foods, the traffic, the people, I love that big city. I thought it'll be awesome if I could spend my next three or four years here while I take the college. But you know, this University, where my biggest dream lies, it's hard to get in there.

I didn't pass the first chance to get in there, I remember the day I was reading the result on its official site, it says a formal sorry--that everyone in this earth knows that me and another kids who didn't pass this don't need!--and I didn't pass. I knocked me down really hard and I cried alot. Mom kept sending texts and got me in phone calls trying to boost me up. I was like losing my direction and clueless and again, being depressed.

Ok stop talking about those days. I didn't take many pictures while I was there...

Btw, I was finally had a chance to watch NBL! It is something I wanted since years ago and I finally able to got it! I was soooo excited and spending a lot of my money to bought the franchise :p and I LOVE taking pictures with the (hot) players part!

I hope I'll be back there, soon.