realized

is anyone realized 2014 is coming in less than 31 days right away?

this year had been so rough, complicated, all the ups and downs were somehow frustrating. then, without you even have chance to notice, days keep passing by, clock keeps ticking, and all of sudden december is here already.

then you started thinking, what have you done in this whole year, what have you been through, was there any changes.

then you started feeling some sort of emotions. you just realized how miserable your life is. it feels like you're running toward a cliff, then it feels like you're trapped in a small island in the middle of the ocean alone, but you're not afraid, you're not feel any loneliness, because it's not the loneliness that scares you the most. you scared that you just like it to be alone, you scared that you will possibly build a fences around you just to keep people away without you ever realized.

then you realized who stays who left. who cares who just having curiosities. who's there to be laugh with but left when it's niagara falls on your eyes. you realized no one would stay when you on your low, though they say the would. no one you can count on, to listen to your stories without secretly judging you. no one worth your sleepless night thinking about 'em.

then you realized you're alone.

and you're fine with it.

fine.

you'll be fine.

i swear.