Two days left!

2012 is two days left.

People made themselves busy with makin' some new year resolutions. I used to be that kind of person. But lately I know that it's kinda useless. I mean, every year I always make at least 4 new year resolutions and somehow it didn't work out on me. I live my life as it goes, I can't stuck on some wishes and silly goals I made on the day I want it to be happened. I can possibly don't want it anymore in the middle of the year, who knows?

On January I made 6 2011 goals, and know what? Just two of them that practically happened. I was failed to get in Science class, I was failed to join the biggest basketball tournament in my country and should patiently wait next year for my turn, and I completely failed to decrease my weight. And I didn't feel like a happier person this year. Well, let's get some flashbacks about this year. I've got tons of bad moments, and also the good ones.

This year my beloved uncle, my mom's the only brother, passed away. That's the worst thing that happened to me this year. Losing someone you adore, you love, close to you, be there for you and every single family member, someone who being so great, so nice, how could it be not bad? He's gone all of sudden. I wish you get the best place beside Allah SWT, om. We miss you already :)

Did I mention that I was failed to get in Science class? Well, yes, I was. But that's not definitely the end of the world. Social class is not as bad as I thought it would be. My classmates in XI Social 2 are nice, but yeah, there are some annoying classmates too. Get in Social class means no pressure. Eventho all of the subjects are definitely not my thing, like Economy.. Sociology.. geez, I was their #1 hater, but compare to Science class which is full of pressure if your brain not capable of it... Social class is good enough and giving you much time to enjoy your time in high school (no offense all of Science class' members! :p). And I made it to the first rank in the end of the first semester in Social class. First rank! yaaaaay! Such a great welcome, Social class!

I turned 16 on September. I realized the older I am, the better I should be. It's time to think and planning my future. What am I gonna do after graduated? Which University will I take? It somehow struggling all over my head. I'm accepting people's opinions. I know it's time to make my own decision, no matter am I ready or not.

I wanna thank God for keeping my family and all my besties safe. I'm really grateful to having them all around me and get their supports whenever I need it. I always mention their names everytime I pray, asking God to let them stay near me, wishing they enjoying their lives, and they keep loving and supporting me. Especially mom. We fight and argue a lot. But I can't imagine life without her. Without her there is no me. She is the strongest woman I ever known. She mad at me most of the times cz we rarely have the same sight of things, we don't have the same taste of fashion and foods, me and my mom just... different. But I love her, and she loves me too.

And this is last flashback I wanna share, but not least.

You.
Thank you for all the good memories you gave me. Five months may not be long, but I guess it's long enough for me to learn. Learn that the one who changed me is not always the one will be long lasting with me. Learn that love isn't enough for a commitment, it including faith, and everything else. Thank you for those tears you put on my cheeks, and all the wounds. It makes me stronger.
Thank you for the best birthday surprise ever. You made the day I'm turning fifteen completely perfect. I will never forget the day when you came over and asking me out. Thank you for the attention. Maybe Rihanna is right about the boy who would make us feel like we are the only girl in the world. Well, with all your attention, you did makin' me feel like I'm the only girl in this world.
Thank you for a few last words at that night you told me. When you said you will love me like forever, and eventho I knew sooner or later it will be... just words, but at least it makes me feel better that night. And yes, the next three months everything becomes like you never say those words to me, and I've been replaced.
How I wish what happened in 1st March is never exist.

11 Things

Another post in Indonesian, folks! Lagi lagi aku di tag sama Basith di postingannya, which is mean, aku mesti nge-post juga hahaha eh ngerti ga?

Postingan ini ada hubungannya sama angka 11. Biar lebih jelas buka punyanya Basith aja deh ya di sini hehe. Aku sama Basith make a deal kalo aku ga mesti nge-tag another 11 bloggers lagi, soalnya...berhubung baruuu juga main blog ya ga kenal blogger sampe 11 orang -_- so, anyone who reading this post and wants to copy, sok atuh haha :D

First rule-nya... "Each person must post 11 things about themselves in their jurnal" ok....

1. Aku suka warna ungu (but doesn't mean I'm a belieber, note that. Well I like Justin but not as much as a belieber do), merah maroon, sama warna kuning. Ga punya alasan kenapa aku suka :S

2. I love basketball a lot, dan tim favorit aku tuh LA Lakers sama Boston Celtics. Bayangin seberat apa dilema aku (tsahh...) waktu final playoffs tahun 2009, pas Lakers akhirnya ketemu Celtics...aaa :0 ga tau mesti dukung yang mana. Jadi setiap Rajon Rondo atau Kobe Bryant nyetak score sama sama aku teriakin di depan tv hahaha

I'm a Celtics fan :] *taken with webcam, bad quality-_-*

3. I can speak three kind of languages: Indonesian, English, aaand Bahasa Melayu. Well, bahasa melayu itukan macem macem ya, jadi mungkin bahasa melayu yang aku pake bisa dikategorikan sebagai bahasa melayu pontianak. Bahasa melayu itu asik loh hahaha kok bisa asik ya aku juga ga tau. Mungkin dari lahir yang masuk ke telinga aku ya bahasa ini kali ya hahaha

4. I'm a Herpetophobia. :/

5. Pernah nangis semaleman di kamar gara gara ga bisa ngerjain pr trigonometri dan pr nya mesti dikumpulin besok paginya.

6. I'm a cry baby. I believe that with crying, everything will feel so right even just a bit :)

7. Aku benci film horor. Beneran ga suka. What's the point of watching something that makes you can't sleep at night? Biar umur udah enam belas jalan tujuh belas gini aku sukanya kartun. And so far, my favorite ones are Coraline and Toy Story :3

8. Addicted to Buzz Lightyear. To infinity and beyond!

9. A twitter-freak. Can't tell you why.

10. Sebenernya ya aku tuh ga punya patokan buat tipe cowok. Tapi ga tau kenapa nyantol nya selalu sama yang...hmmm...sipit sipit gitu yang cina cina. *blush*.

Mario...*drool*

11. Platsm means the world for me.

HAHAHAHA that's all. Rule selanjutnya... aku mesti jawab beberapa pertanyaan absurd nya Basith. Here we go...

1.Kapan mulai blogging?
Baru bangeeeeeeeeeeet oktober lalu kalo ga salah hehe

2.Tau blog gue (Arti Sebuah Tulisan) dari mana?
buka buka info facebook. (please sith.... aku bukan stalker, benarlah -_-)

3.Sebutkan 3 hal mengenai blog gue menurut pendapatmu!
colorful, berbobot (ga kayak blog aku-_-), dan apa adanya :) (loh?)

4.Kenapa Indonesia menang Sea Games?
karena... ayo ayo ayo Indonesia bisa~

5.Paling takut dengan siapa/apa?
Allah swt sebagai Pencipta 0:)

6.Ceritakan singkat pengalaman tergokilmu.
Aku pernah jatuh dari motor sampe kecebur selokan gara gara ngindarin anak kecil yang main sepeda sambil noleh kebelakang. Dan itu seminggu sebelum farewell party SMP yang di dangau itu loh sith -_- lutut aku lecet lecet dan dress aku di atas lutut, terpaksa pake dress lain -_-

7.Apa impian kalian?
sukses. gitu aja hahaha. Dan impian untuk waktu dekat ini cuma semoga ulangan semesteran aku lancar dan hasilnya bikin puas hati bukannya malah bikin nyesek haha trus semoga DBL 2012 sesuai dengan harapan.

8.Blogger yang nyebelin tuh seperti apa sih?
ha............gatau ._.

9.Ciuman dengan apa yang paling nikmat?
apa pula ini....-_- ga tau, ga pernah -_-

10.Enakan berak jongkok, duduk atau berdiri?
jongkok!

11.Apa yang akan kalian lakukan kalo gue disamping kalian?
tepok bahu sambil bilang "baseeeeeth! cemane gak lama nda di pontianak nih? asli tambah puteh kayaknye nih yeee"

fiiuuuh. Selesai juga postingan ini hahahah panjang amat yak kayaknya. Thank you Basith for tagging me :)